Change of my Blog Address!
OK,
I really hope this will be the last time that I will change my blog address......Well, some experiances in Germany showed me to what extent my whole world and thoughts were focussing on and somehow I lost the true essence of being just Gordon. I do not care if you guys like it or not, but for me personally I will have to change everything about how I will go forward from now on and the postings captured in this blog was purely based on the last 6 months of sadness which I would prefer to leave behind from now on. This new blog will basically be a reflection of my everyday life and thoughts to try and strive for peace and happiness.
I guess from now on you guys will truely enjoyed to read more about what's truly determining life and not about the sadness created emotional downfall.
So, I am sorry again, but I need to do this for me. You all can change your current blogs for the last time and add my new link if you still want to keep in touch with my daily life.
www.zudafrikanisch.blogspot.comCiao
Really the Last Blog!
OK, I'm stuck to blogging exactly the same way like I like my beer, women, cigarettes and maybe like.......well, this is a public blog and absolutely no space for vulger language or impure thoughts....
So, this will be the last blog untill I will return from Germany. Anne wants to build our joint venture effort blog into some incredible memorable standard and I could not agree even more. So, if you want to follow the happenings, please leave some comments on our german blog and tell us/me/her just how fucking jealous you all are for not being there with us.
The link is on the right side of my personal blog called "The Deutschland Experiance, Info & More" and on Anne's personal blog it is called "German Blog". If you don't get it, well then you are seriously too fucking stupid to really understand what an amazing journey this will be and you will loose out all on the fun. If you can not be there with us in person, then try at least to be in spirit.
PS: Keep an eye on both mine and Anne's PhotoBlogs to see the images taken during total insanity. I miss y'all and may the South African force be with y'all.
Ciao
WYBMADIITY - Huh?
Well, I know I have said that my next blog will be from Germany, but instead I have decided to reflect on the activities of the past weekend. So, like I have said that Dirk has asked me to go with him to supervise a job of one of our colleagues in Mbeya.
Well, what a fucking drive. We left the office on Friday afternoon around 13:30 and headed for the long road to freedom to some extent. It took us about 3 hours to do a 300km stint for our first stop at Mikumi National Park to do lunch. Once we were on the National Park’s road, it was really unbelievable to see how green the world really has become. It was so green that you could see some wild animals feasting on the road side. I took some amazing shots of wild elephants, dears, zebras, giraffes and some wild baboons.
Once we entered the Camp site where we decided to go for a late lunch, it was all and all a different story. The place was so green and it was really just so beautiful and amazing. Right in front of the open planned restaurant, there was at least 2 water holes where the thirsty animals came to drown their thirsts…..not that they were the only one’s who did a bit of drowning thirsts I have to add very diplomatically. If I have to guess, the water holes were approximately 20 – 30 meters away from the restaurant, but it was really amazing to see these animals walking freely with no border lines. At this point I have experienced the true essence of freedom. There was no electricity, no telephones and we were just parking off watching the sunset to some extent with the wild animals marching all around us. It was really an incredible feeling to have experienced this. After all of these incredible experiences, it was time to hit the road again.
The weirdest part is that none of us knew exactly how far this drive was. I can confirm now that it took us another 8 hours drive to get to Mbeya. All and all it was about 11 hours drive. It was definitely the most beautiful scenery I have experienced in a long time. To compare it with Mauritius…..Mauritius only had beautiful beaches with a couple good mountains, but this was different. This was like the scenery from home……Just so amazing. I think when god designed the world, he created Africa first.
OK, eventually we found a hotel at 23:30 and let me tell you that there is no way in hell that this hotel could deserve any stars and per night per person it pulled out a staggering USD40……..fucking shit. Anyway……Saturday morning broke and Dirk and I still just so fucked from the 11 hours drive. First thing first and we woke up with a very big surprise……This was the day that the local electricity Tenesco decided to cut the power on the whole city part of their power sharing scheme…..The water levels are low due to insufficient rainfall and then there is no water to cool down their turbines or even run some of their turbines to run and therefore, NO FUCKING ELECTRICITY. Anyway, we set off to site to go and finish up what we were planning to do and then I was gratefully advised that there is no fucking way I will be allowed on site due to my clothing. Yeah, they didn’t like the fact that I wore T-shirts, my beach shorts and open shoes……Against safety regulations. So, I was demoted to support staff and did all the fucking driving for food, spare parts and just everything that was needed.
I did like the job to some extent…..because I didn’t have to work. I found an open bar at 10am and there I parked and shared very valuable information about countries I have visited before. With a Captain Morgan Dark Rum of course….or a couple I might add. Just a little bit of bar talk. I have looked for an internet café and eventually found one that was open (running on generators), but signal strength of the satellite internet was so fucking bad that I couldn’t even open my emails….God, it felt if I was in hell for 3 days…….So, eventually picked up Dirk for lunch and drove straight back to the bar for a couple more COLD ONE’s…….At the bar counter there was a plate with these letters on “WYBMADIITY”. Dirk asked the guy who was sitting next to us with the idea that this might be SWAHILI and with our curiosity we are always interested in new bar theories. This guy told him Will You Buy Me A Drink If I Tell You and firstly we didn’t catch it and thought that this poor guy was one fucking arrogant SOB and with our South African tempers we almost took this down to the bar stools if you know what I mean, but luckily we behaved. Awesome Shit Bru!
Eventually, the electricity came on around 8pm and we were back in business. I fetched Dirk around 9pm and we went back to the “Zero Star” Hotel. We were so fucked, because of the activities during the day and decided that there is only one way and that is straight for food, couple of cold one’s and then the bed. At 7am this morning, Dirk woke me up and we prepared for our journey back home. Fuck, it’s been a while since I have done long distance driving….keep in mind that Mauritius only has a circumference of 260km…..Anyway, 09:30 we hit the road and I took over the driving around the 300km mark all the way back home. This time it came down to only 8.5 hours drive. This was really an awesome weekend doing something that none of us have done for such a long time.
Finally, I’m back in the office and it is now around 20:40pm and busy typing this blog. Guys enjoy your time around and I promise now that my next blog will be from Deutschland.
Ciao for now
PS: Check out the pictures, there are quite a couple of good one’s of this weekend.
Halt!
Trying to put my mind at ease and somehow I can only manage to do that for 5 minutes. Well
7 days to go........but this is not really why I am thinking so much. It has been probably the hardest 4 weeks of my life and like I have said in an earlier posting that focussing on just that what is so imprtant to me at this point in time. WORK!
I have slaved such long hours for so long and last night it came to a stop. I just couldn't go on anymore. I can not think back when was the last time I was at my house whatching TV at 6pm. This is where I draw the line and take a time-out. I just can't go on the pace I have been doing for so long. This will be a much needed break coming up and it will be my first holiday ever where I went on holiday for more than 3 weeks consecutively. Can you believe that? You better, because it is fucking true.
And there is so much work ahead and somehow I know I will get in a couple of hours work while I'm in Germany. Specially on the days where Anne has to work.......Anyway, let me get off this subject for now. I haven't spend much time to write to anyone during this time. It was really that hard and busy.
So, Got some winter clothing packed (OK, not really packed...I only pack about 2 hours before I left for the airport). The thing is I get too excited (and not the way you guys think) when I start packing and if I do it a day or 2 in advance, they time will go snailing. I can not deal with that so I rather work on 99% and rush everything down to the last minute.
I got a very sad email last week from a dear friend of mine in Germany and somehow see was on my mind for the whole time. Bru, I am so sorry for your loss and my the force be with you the whole time. Because if I like you, that will mean a whole lot of people likes you too and that is only good news, because it means you are not alone.....You will never be alone even though it might only be in spirit. You have made me think so much about reality and stop living in a dream world. It is good to dream, but life will slip right by. (And I'm talking of me, not you). Sometimes we forget really how lucky we are to have the people we love close to us and if they're not, then you have to make a plan to get them there. Well, unfortunately I am in position where I can not make that decision. I build my decisions on the things that are fundemental to me and not fiction.
I will see you and not so long and I will make a plan to come and show face before you leave for the US of A. I just hope that you will find yourself soon and that everything will settle down to normailty, which will be new for you as well.
Sometimes I really try to put the value of true friendships. We never realise this untill bad luck strikes and then we are always so happy to have our friends around. But I have tought myself for so long to deal with everything on my own and back in Mauritius I was spoiled to have so many good people around who are to this day my closest friends. But now everything is back to normality for me and I do what I do best, deal with it on the South African way.....Drink it away!
So, Sandrine, just know that I do think of you. Best of luck with everything back home and USA. See ya soon bru. Ja, so I will be off on holiday soon and somehow and get this weird butterfly feeling in my my stomache....it is really so unbelievable to know that I will see most of the people I care about so soon. For some it has been 12 months and for others only 3 months, but I will be in 7th Heaven soon.
I guess I will work this week out and I will be very close to death. To get some energy back into the bones I will go with Dirk this weekend 850km away to go and supervise a project that a colleague of us are trying to explore his his road to the dollar success. Maybe only Zimbabwe dollar success, but it is a good opportunity for him and I am happy for him that he is a well goal driven human being trying to look after or looking after his family. Lets just put this mildly and very diplomatic, because someone reads this blog as well which could get Dirk and me in Big trouble.........We will attempt to come home alive after a mission of what we do best................and somehow this will be a real warm up lap for Germany as well.
So, we will behave ourselves to the extent that we will be thinking that we are still behaving and after that we will return with sudden loss of memory. I will have the pics to prove how bad it went. So for now, it will be out untill my next blog from Germany.
Cheers guys and have fun. Miss y'all
I'm leaving on that midnight train tomorrow!
It's been really a long time since I have listened to friend Lionel! To be exact it had to be colse to 7 months. People fade, but memories lives on......only because it was such a great time.
Timo and Hubert left the island on Monday exactly a year ago and this has also been the last time I have seen them. Shortly after, to mourn the occasion together with friends, but basically regrouping and get all our thoughts together. It was on a public holiday wich was Wednesday (date wise Thurday) a year ago.....the day my life changed forever. I guess she forgot this day like she has forgot a lot of things. But I'm not good with dates at all, just shows you what impact this day had on my life to follow.
But it was like a lot of things to follow. A lot of good memories followed like the once I have experianced earlier with a different set of friends, but at the same time I signed up (not knowingly, but should have expected it) for basically incredible hard time ahead and I still do feel the consequences of my actions back then. But know can predict anything, but life will teach you the things you are set here to be tought....There is absolutely no 2 ways about it, accept it and grab the bull by the horns and run with it. Who knows when it will ever stop?
One year on, we all are on different continents doing just that we set ourselves to mind. But one thing lives on and that is memories and something that still brings me to my knees is the fact that I under estimated the value or the feeling of true friendships. To the day when I think back of just that most incredible time of my life, I re-live the memories and it does not go apart from a feeling of satisfaction. The sad thing I have to move on. I have to experiance new things (not that I want to forget about the old one's) and follow my road to destiny. Somehow I have come to the point where I have to say goodbye to a lot of good times with a whole lot of good people put together in just one small fucking shit island.....to add what my friend Nachi told me a couple of days (or weeks) ago....The Island of broken dreams.....! And somehow I have seen it happening time and time again, but never thought it could happen to me.
So, time is up......
13 days to go! I will go and make my rounds and then I have done my part in this social development phase of my life. Who ever wants to come and see me are most welcome. I am not writing anyone off...It's just that I have to start focussing now on who I am and what I want to achieve in my life. For now, it will have to be alone and I will set my mind on those things that needs my attention. I will focus on what I have done so well for so long, but have let it slip a bit in a way I wish never did. An unscheduled trip has been added into my German schedule (and Yes, it is work again) to visit my head office in Paris to determine where I will fit into Degremont's future plans. I guess this will be around 5 - 10 March and with this meeting I will have determined just that what I have worked so hard for such a long time.
It is funny how we loose the only one thing that was true, honest & committed to you and somwhow afterwards we want to fight to get it back. Why loose it in the first place? I have to say it almost happened, but luckily my eyes has opened up now and I know what is important to me. I will go forward now, with or without you guys. It's my destiny to do the things I believe in.
The time has come for things to happen again and I have waited long enough to try and fix everything that did not fit my life. Looking at it from this perspective that if it did not fit, why waste the time to make it fit........It's from now on all gone.
I packed up all my troubles and sorrows and I will throw them all away. I know where I'm going even if I know I might go all the way alone.
This is not pointed towards anyone and I'm not sad at all. I 'm just shocked of how I could have lost the control. At least I'm on the right track now and if you want to stand with me, you better stand proud and tall.
Changing Face!
Wow, I can not believe it has been 6 days since my last blog. Anyway, I just wished that everyone else could be so committed to their blogs. I give the germans some rope, because I know they are busy with their exams......but those Americans and the dude left on the island, Nachi. It is really funny how a hair cut can change the way you feel. When my hair is "relatively" long it somehow contributes to some degree the level of depression existing to my everyday life. This is not bullshit, for real. Does this only happen to me? Well, the hunk is back in town so hold your horses German ladies......Elvis will enter the building pretty soon! (Not soon enough though)
Well, here is not a lot to blog about. Dirk finally decided that my first name is SLAVE and my last, well you guessed it right.....Labour...Call me from now on Slave Labour! Good news is that I hooked up with Joel yesterday. Well, he is on MSN now and told him to get SKYPE as well. Apparently the bru is back in Rodrigues teaching. I would have loved to have that guy as my Social Development teacher back in school. So I have forwarded all your guys MSN contacts to him and I guess he will get pretty soon in contact with all of you. Hey Joel, nice to have you back brother. It's been a while!
The next thing is that in exactly 2 weeks from now I will work my final day for about a month. Yeah, just a while ago it was 7 weeks to go and from now on I will start to do the countdown as well.
15 days to go untill I put my feet on a airplane again.....
The schedule has been finalised up too about 80% and I know when I will see who. Right now the names for certain will be (start from day 1) Anne, Timo, Hubsi, (all Parties first)..then Skiing (more Party...Austria or Zugspitze) then Cologne (even more partying, Carnival) then Amsterdam (well you guessed it right guys..I'm not going to mention here what we will do, because of legal issues)....then Berlin & maybe 1 or 2 towns extra (still deciding) then Frankfurt....Kerstin, Lars, Joern and that is all that is finalised right now. Then, I'll be on my way and be slaving for another year just to afford the next trip. Anne, I can't wait! Thanx bru!
Next I want to give an update on the animal issue here in Tanzania....Well Griffin (the Le Mour) took the road deciding that the tree close to my office was in deed to close to my office. Bru, Enjoy life. The baby mongoose that belongs to Dirk is growing up nicely and she walks all over the house an tease the dogs. I called it a "she" because she fucking moans like a "She" and her name is (let me try to spell it...it's actually in Zulu meaning RAT) Gunewane!. Dirk, help me out on this one! She is incredibly cute and I'm going to steel her, I swear!
So, nothing much new in the land of slaves & labourers.....Just doing what we do best....Trying to take over the world like every night before. Hope you guys are doing OK. Germans, my sympothy goes to you guys this week for the exams...Anne, only 2 days more to go...It's almost over.
Oh ja, any news on Uma......Amuuuuuu, where are you?
PS: Start commenting or I'm going to stop blogging and that includes for EVERYONE in Germany. I'm pulling a Jess on myself....
Ciao
